Don't cry like a baby

Someone scratched my arm!!


Basketball was tiring.
0 point. Didn't score.
^.^"

Probably

one of the worst weekends ever.

Although only 2 assignments due next week, I was almost taken out by them.
With all the details and specifications of the assignments, man I can use some vodKa shots.

Almost finished both.
Long day, long night.


Good luck my friends.

Zon Hijau

Went to watch Green Zone yesterday with bunch of college mates.
Learned something though
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No more A&W ever! ^_^


The movie, man I wish I get the storyline. Always lose me somewhere in the middle.
The beginning part was fine, makes me want to play COD.
As for the night scenes, thumbs down.

Didn't know any of the actors inside except for Matt Damon and... (DrBenjamin from FRIENDS).
That's it.

Don't go to Ayyyyyyy&DoubleU !!!

Blues

There's a reason I love solos, guitar solos especially. Different players exert different emotions in their solos; different listeners perceive them differently.
They do not have exact words. They are tunes that bring you to think, to relate, and to feel. Be them angry, romantic, uplifting, or sad. One way or another, there is always one or two that you can 'relate' with your feeling, and that is the best feeling.
Knows no boundary, be in the moment.
:)


Because you never know what's coming, when's life ending.

:|

enjoyed that moment of epiphany. It felt sad, alone, but I needed that, something different; something... yeah at least something.



...when I sat alone outside at the staircase while the music was playing inside. Sit, emotionless, condensation, breaking down of ego boundaries, aimlessly, lost.
'Lost' or 'Down' are not the words that I like to use to describe my feelings, ever. I believe if I want things going my way, they will. Maybe not now, nor later, but eventually; keep your hopes up, not high nor low, but alive.
I understand that my posts have not been very cheerful lately.
But hey... I'll be fine. It's me :)

If this was 4 years before

I would've already be crying.



It's the first time that I didn't feel like hanging up the phone.

P.L.E.H

I nudged an ol' friend of mine just now. Seeing him online this late at 4am. I guessed something was bothering him.
After the chat over MSN, I was right.

Apparently he's being bothered by a lot of stuffs. Emotionally, and financially.

I tried to help - listen, gental advice, questioning, listen and listen.

I suddenly realise that the capability of one is sometime very limited.
I wish I was Mr.Philip all that sudden because I really wanted to relieve his pain.
Maybe I did, I hope I did.


Prayer.

Composing

I write lyrics and fix them up with nice melodies. Things always terminate half way before they are finished. Most of the time it's because I cannot come up with meaningful lyrics. Sometimes the words are sophisticated, but turn out the song just doens't mean anything, or bring out any messages.


Need more ups and downs in life in order to write better, influencial music.

Gain and loss

Lost 2 of my greatest picks yesterday to an event in Help college.


This is a special post dedicated to them.


R.I.P

LoL!
not funny :(

My vision broadens

Today(yesterday) was filled with mixed fillings. Not all are bad, not all are good.
Well today was the Big Day, capital B and capital D.
Talent-lah competition Finals. We reached there early for the sound check, set-ups and everything.
Honestly, I didn't think that our band stands much of a chance to win. Maybe I was being... uncertain about Us. Plus, the other performers were Mind-Blowing. Anyway as it turns out, we won.
I am happy for the band and most importantly Kent. His first ever stage-presentable(according to himself :D) song won the gold! Proud of him, and the rest of the band as well.
Nicholas, Joanna, Carmen, Lyon and Sean, I really wanna thank you all for making the effort to be there to support us. We learned your spirits!


Anyway,
Something bizarre happened at 1:15am just now, right after Kent dropped Sean and Lyon to their car at Esso petrol station. The radio station played the song Need You Now, which stirred my mixed feelings even more. Cause' you know, the chorus of the song. LOL
I think the radio station purposely arranged that song to be played at that particular time.

Asks my heart:" Huh, who do you miss, really?"

All I want to do is...

I haven't realise yet until then...
I have done a lot of bad things to myself, irresponsible things.

That includes overly self-indulging, in quite many ways.
Gaming is one, dieting is one, time managing is one.
I need to care about myself more; which I can't be lazy to do so anymore!

It would take me at least two hours to get into sleep for the past couple of weeks. Roll around my bed and once in a while glance at my phone clock. Asking myself why couldn't I just sleep? It's freaking 5 hours left before I have to wake up and prepare for college! And sometime when you're just about to fall into sleep, your housemates walk in the house(in the middle of the night), and start to chatter like nobody's business(their language buzzes me, just), turn on the TV, and you start to hear the constant buzzing TV transmissional sound.
I could use some pills. haha






Anyway, I hope dad will be fine.
=I

How do I stop myself

from gaming until this late.

Shit man.

Disrupted sleeping hours once again.

I hate weekends.

Cause I don't see my friends.

I don't(can't) talk to anybody.

And that's not very good.





maybe it's the coffee.

Things I miss doing the most during childhood

I came across this question in Facebook interview and it popped in my head so much of memories.

The previous time I went back to Miri was for CNY. I wanted to gather all the cousins up and pay a visit to our grandparents old house we used to call 'Tukau'. Truth is, grandparents have passed years ago. As for the house, it was intentionally burnt down by some god-knows-who out there years before that.

When we were young and small, visits to grandpa's house were fun. Of course I was only what, like 7, 8 or 10 years old.
During weekends we cousins usually gather up and be there by the afternoon. The grown ups will do their stuffs, tidy up the house, preparing lunch; while the kids will be out there catching grasshoppers, or at the backyard(which was a huge, deep and endless jungle) playing. Grandpa's house was basically located in the middle of a jungle.

Grandma always had tea in the kettle in the kitchen, which I didn't like back then. Grandpa will always have carbonated Sarsi drinks under his bed. If you are lucky, he will offer you a can.

On the desk you can see calenders piling up, pieces by pieces. The kids will take these old, yellowish calenders that grandma removes from the calender on the wall every morning, and use them to make paper flights. We will make as many as we can, head up to the balcony, and see whose flight can fly the furthest.


I miss that place; I miss grandpa
;)

and it's true(you)....

All my sorrows flew away; hush keep quiet hear me say.



Made it to the Finals in Talent-lah.
Hmm, cool.



Now it feels like university!
With all the assignments, strict lecturers, packed schedules, stuff like that.
Bag is becoming heavier and heavier, with all the papers.

John... omg... what do you think you are doing...

stalking on babes near the pool using your zoom lens.

XD

The weather is burning...

...ever since the Chinese New Year.


For the past few days of last week, I've been sweating when I sleep. I even woke up in the middle of the night, sweat and itchy. I can assure you that it wasn't the best feeling of all.


Everything was bad until I got myself this fan from Jusco.
=D haha

For a braver tomorrow

See y'all fireballs tomorrow..