Everywhere we go...

Yeah, the Blazers rock!
Ok I'm pretty sure that you're clueless of what I just said there. Well still, the Blazers rock! The most deserving Underdog First Runner Up! lnnl
Today(and tomorrow) is the Orientation day for the fresh March intakes, the juniors. We gathered at a big hall, which to me is like a refurnished basement carpark with air-conditionals, sound system... et cetera.
Things were rather general and brief today, more like a simple run-through. There were laughters inside my head when seeing those 'high profile' people. 2 words to describe the way they dressed themselves - Ridiculously inappropriate
Break time, I managed to find a table after a short scan through the crowd, height advantage *GG*. I sat myself down, with 2 other nice ladies - Michelle and Carmen
Lunch was awful. It's like we're eating beside the stoves, only hotter. The rocks on my beverage could not melt away any quicker.
It had been like months since I've talk ABC with someone. So I was under tremendous amount of pressure when speaking with my teammates, gosh they speak fluent English. I know it sounds stupid but I need to put effort on fitting in the group. *grin*
Okay things to cheer about: There's a Taekwando Club, *giggles* I might need that to protect myself from muggers(aforementioned issue). Or I could flee, then I will have to join athletic clubs. x)
Anyway, looking forward to the next sunshine.
Rock on.

Photos

Pianist at Sunway Piramid.


Little Jamie


Why is Little Jamie drooling?

Because he saw this! My first dish.

Hold On, tight.

To be honest I'm a bit overwhelmed by the life here. Well for my own safety I ought to ground myself in during night time, or even day time too if necessary. Just yesterday night around 11pm, a series of unpleasant noises alarmed my attention while I was in my room. Noises like somebody shouting, hitting the barred windows with a very hard object, and agonizing cries. With not much of considerations, I instinctively went out to the living room, without turning on the light, I secretly peeked out to the upper floor of my apartment through the half-closed window. A group of four or five non-chinese was there and I'm sure that that's the source of where all the noises came from.

*It's 8:30pm now, I just went to shut the light in my room. 60 Earth Hour*
This can't be good, typing in darkness with only the harsh glare from the laptop shooting into my eyes.

Back to the story - I continued looking and started to question myself somewhere in my head if it's the wisest thing to do, to stick my nose in others' business. I could get myself into trouble I figured, so I went back to my room pretending that nothing has happened. The noise got more and more bothersome, making me unable to concentrate. I went back and forth to the living room and finally I decided to make a call to the security centre. After a short period of time, the noise settled.

Why must there be bad people? What's making them corrupt? Ego, dishonesty, desperateness, filth. People like that bend against the normal ethic of humanity. And there's people like us, who fix the broken bridges, heal the shattered hearts, mend the broken wings. If you're not part of the solution, you're part of the trouble - Nobody ever wants trouble.
Peace Peace Peace

Transcension

It's very gratifying when things start catching on their steps, yes everything. From initial flight ticket, examination results, the course-to-take, shelter, online laptop order and the blissful excitement flowing inside my blood. Glad to see everything is filling their places in the puzzle.
I was urged by my parents to take the temporary stay at my uncle's house at KL. Initially I was awed by that very idea because uncle and his family have always been occupied for work and it will make me feel like I'm a burden. Everyone, including grandma and uncle himself starts chattering at me, for not taking that god-given opportunity. Before that I didn't even have the gut to imagine myself staying there, but the chatters brought my thoughts closer to it and finally said:" Alright."
I mean, perspectively they could provide me a roof, meals and transportations before I found my own apartment. It would save up a lot of worries from my parents too, in addition. So it's basically just a question of "Why not?"

*Scan through my room* - All the packed luggages, could not be more stuffed. Let see, I have a luggage, a medium-sized roller bag, a box, a backpack and a guitar. Oh, awful lots of things to carry.


Brother doesn't have a lot of highschool memories. Not true, dig deeper!
Once he told me to appreciate the time I have in highschool, I listened and I did. All the mean and silly things, weird hair-do's(which then I thought was cool), enormous crush on girl classmate, hanging around with all the dudes at school compound. Let me share a little story, my personal favourite.
At my peralihan year, my class went for jungle trekking at the mountain near the school. My classmate Kai Chin leaded the rest of the class as he skillfully climb up the slopy hill with both hands and feet working perfectly on the harsh landscape.
I was at the second last, watching while waiting for my turn. Our team splitted and as a result I ended up with Alan Koo and Karen Ong. The three of us were at the middle of the jungle as we were finding a way down. Maybe it rained the night before, so the paths were kind of slippery. I guess you could figure out what happened next. Luckily it's not on me, but Alan Koo. He was fortunate enough to slip down a short but steep slope, meeting a banana tree 'right between his legs'! And surprisingly the tree was bent 45degrees after receiving the big momentum, Ouch! How huge was the impact, the peralihan kid made the tree bent. Karen and I both laughed on top while Alan constantly hopped and groaned in pain.
Anyway, it's a story that I will always tell at gatherings while the group is sharing all the memories.

I will continue to update my blog, once I get my lappy and internet connection. See you all next time.
I love you and,
God Bless Us All.

Don't Force It

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Ross:" How sad are we. "
Joey:" Yeah I know. "
Chandler:" You know what, we're not sad. We're not sad cause we're not twenty one anymore. You know? - I'm twenty nine years old damn it and I wanna sit in a comfortable chair and watch television and go to sleep at a reasonable hour!".
Joey & Ross:' Yeah!
Joey:" I'd like to hang out in a quiet place, where I can talk to my friends."
Ross & Chandler:" Yeah!"
Ross:" And so what if I'd like to go home, throw on some Kenny-G and take a bath."
Joey & Chandler:" *stare*
Joey (to Ross):" We're twenty nine, we're not women."
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Scheduled to take a health-check, so I couldn't have supper that night nor breakfast in the next morning. So here's my planet saving plan, to stay as late as I possibly could so I would wake up as late as possible the next day. 10am sharp, my alarm woke me up. Went to pathlab and took my urine and blood test(ouch!). That was this morning, it's one past midnight right now. The glare illuminated from the monitor starts to hurt my heavy eyes. I better finish this off asap.
Unless I am very tired, I could never have a proper nap on my bed anymore. I think there's an ant colony somewhere around my bed, flipped through the mattress over and over and It is nowhere to be found. But when I intend to lay myself down for a pleasant nap, here's when they come and attack me. Usually, one by one they will climb up to my arms and belly and start ambushing violently. If I'm in a pretty mood, I will just flick or blow them away. If they keep pushing my button, I will run them over with my finger mercilessly, like a truck over a puppy. *L.O.L* Emphasizing it, in a sick way. That's why, DnD! when I'm trying to sleep.

Preference of music genre is shifting from Metal to Blues. Anyway IMO, Blues doesn't sound as good on guitars as it does on saxaphones. You can't play Metal with a sax too, just a matter of fact. Maybe, someday.

Don't Just Do Something, Stand There!

Last beverage → Water
Last phone call → Dad
Last text message → Kevin
Last song you listened to → K.will - Love 119
Last time you cried → Few days ago in my dream


HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice → No
Been cheated on → No
Kissed someone & regretted it → No
Lost someone special → No

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → Yes
Laughed until you cried → Yes
Met someone who changed your life → Yes
Found out someone was talking about you → No
How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?
→ All. What kinda friend lives in an unreal life?
Do you have any pets → No
Do you want to change your name → Not anymore
What time did you wake up today → 8am
What were you doing at midnight last night → Lying on bed reading
Name something you cannot wait for → Lunch
The last time you saw your father→ Dinner
What's one thing you wish you could change→ Histories
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No
What's getting on your nerves right now → Hunger
What's your name → Cruz
Elementary/Primary School→ SJK Chung San Miri
Middle/Secondary School → SMK Chung Hua Miri / RRSS
High School → Not Yet
Hair color → Dark
Long or short → Short
Are you a health freak → Once in a blue moon
or lefty→ No

FIRSTS :
First surgery → Primary 2
First piercing → No
First best friend → Luo Wei Hui
First sport you joined → Tug of War
First pet → Tortoise
First vacation → Brunei

CURRENTLY :
Eating → No
Drinking → No
Waiting → No

YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? → Yes
Want to get married?→ Does a bear shit in the woods?
Careers in mind? → Professional Guitarist/Soprano Saxophonist, Freelance Journalist

HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger → No
Drank Wine/Beer/alcohol → Yes
Lost glasses/contacts → No
Ran away from home → No
Broken someone's heart → Yes
Been arrested → No
Cried when someone died → No

YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → Yes
Miracles → Not yet
Love at first sight → Yes, more like a crush
Heaven → Yes
Kiss on the first date → Yes
Angels → In me, GG!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there a person you want to be with right now? → No
More than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No
Do you believe in God? → Yes

Putting it into Practice

Twenty-six more hours until the day the SPM result is released. I don't know what to say exactly, about that.
Bless you all, bless myself.

I'm leavin' within 2 weeks. My mum seems more concern about it than I do. I can see blood capillaries in her eyes everytime we jump into that particular topic. I'm actually more worry about my parents, since there's no more siblings left under The roof, except for my niece, and my sister's occasional visits. Nobody sheds no tears, you know I don't like it when people weep. Again, I kindly seek for God's help.
My appetite has grown huge recently. Just the other day I had 8 slices of pizza. Everything I eat, I eat twice as much as a normal person does. Just gobble, gobble and gobble. I'm amazing! My stomach is getting bigger and bigger. MUHAHAHA!

Physique might be getting a little bit oversized, but the mental image of everyone seems to have shrunk through ticking time and perhaps distance too, before long. However, I'm not saddened by the thought of it, though glad that we all are travelling our own path. As a matter of fact my dear Friends, the comprehension will always be there, and the bond continues growing longer, stronger, better. And for sure everyone of you is/yet-to-be, a part of the bond.


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Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear.
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Nightmares

Just a short post about nightmares.
Case 1: Ever had one? You suddenly wake up in the middle of the night after having a terrible dream, feeling like you've just been taken to a ride in hell. And when you wake up the next morning, you actually find That specific dream funny and not 'as' terrifying.

Case 2: Or in a total different situation where you feel like you are being pressed by a very very great force when you're getting into sleep. No part of you body can move except your head. And you can hear a very very dreadful scream or cry that raids into your ear and then to your very soul.

Personally I've experienced both of them and I find the first one more frightening. After years and years of torture from nightmares, I finally came out with a solution to counter their arses. Hahaaaaaaaa! That is when they invade during your sleep, just be cool and take 4 long, slow and calm breaths. Then in like 4 or 5 seconds you are right back into your sleep.
There's also an option B for Case 2. You can take a deep deep breath and try to 'breakthrough' the force that holds your body down. The 'breakthrough' doesn't work everytime, you could end up feeling extremely exhausted then doze off to sleep despite the horrifying yells.

Unpublished

Temperature in Miri is rising, not in a good way. I was practically sweating during nap in the ac room. I think something is really wrong with my room's aircond.
Still in blur, from the nap that finally filled its runner-up spot in my list of my-worst-naps-ever. Dad was burning craps at the back, again. Just like many times, I would yell at him and please him to stop. Fact is, he won't. It's either his way, or my way. There's no part in me that makes me want to cope with him cause there is nothing really tolerable there. Normally I would just fill up a pail of water and gush directly to fire, like a tranquilizer shot to a mad dog. I always feel good, my dad doesn't.

Eat or not to eat, both will lead to guiltiness, if you know what I mean. Dreading, such a gloomy day.

Any cheap, recommendable laptops?
Acer, Hp, Toshiba.

The mastery of 'knowing when to'

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*I'm sorry Madame, we only serve Men in this restaurant.*
*Great, bring us two.*
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Trying very hard to write using fancy words and sentence structures. Long long way to go.

In some way, the survey carries the potential of reflecting ones' personalities. Each option brings the rough ideas of each different characteristics. And of course, it made some sense to me, deepen-ed the foundation. In my future, I will have a lot of These to do. And by These, I mean conducting surveys, whether by blogging or telephone calls. I might even have to chase strangers up and ask them questions. What a nice, soothing picture.

It's getting cloudy, as if it is going to rain pretty soon. Please do because it hadn't rain since... like FOREVER. It's almost one in the afternoon which 3 hours ago I was still by the seaside. The weather was nothing like it is now. The unforgiving bright sun shone under to my skin, I should not have worn the sleeveless addidas-tee. I grabbed my book, dashed out of my car, took a little stroll and eventually found myself a seat on the bench. Only if the trees there were more the leafy kind. Man, I mean they were just huge trunks with old dead twigs. Sunlight can easily find its way. I started reading and my skin started to burn too. A small log on the sand caught my eyes, it was shaddy there and I thought to myself 'why not, I could look artistic on that'. So I sat on it and finished my book. *Ah, finally a decent place.* Also, I saw an old foreign couple walking around the seaside. By their facial expression, I could tell that they were amazed by the picture in front of them, maybe a little discomfort from the temperature. But from what I think about the beach, it's so ruined. Not only the sea water but also the breeze. Since when did it start to have harsh burning smell in it? Whoever started the open burning there, maybe 'depressing' is the word I should use to describe you.
Foreigners give me a lot of impressions, especially blondes. Sights of few of them would be more than enough to make my day. I adore, I adore and I adore.
Anyway,
Good morning, Sunshine!